There are currently seven half-finished blog entries waiting to be completed for this site, but I can't seem to figure any of them out. After I'd finished Django-ing my backends, which had been distracting me from writing, I only had two days of enough mental clarity to follow through on the entries I'd been working on before the brain fog set in and I couldn't finish anything for the life of me.

I'm not even sure if I'm going to finish this one, but I know I need to try else I'll get out of the habit and give up on blogging again entirely.

I wish I knew what was going on. I have been extremely fatigued over the last four days, following my decision to quit my job. Normally, when you eliminate a source of stress from your life, things get easier, but for me? Nah. I end up in an extended state of malaise that 10+ hours of sleep a night and stimulant medication cannot help with. Not even a little.

I've considered that it may be my seasonal depression, as we're having a weirdly long stretch of "nice" weather which scares me a little about what summer will have in store for us, but this happens every year, and I don't usually get ass-blastingly exhausted by it. It's also not a change in medication or diet, those have been steady for months. The general state of the world isn't to blame either, because that too has been pretty steady for months. Steadily fucking awful, but still steady. Surely if I were to physically crash out over all of this, it would have happened months ago!

You know what. I've sat here for half an hour trying to figure out how to pad this out into a full blog entry, but that just isn't going to happen. This is what you're getting until I figure it out. Who knows? I might be back on my bullshit as early as tomorrow, because I really don't have any idea when my illnesses are going to flare up or sort themselves out.

I just felt it necessary to post something today.

Happy Koningsdag to anyone who celebrates!